In my Poli Sci class we are spending our first week talking about "Epistamology." Essentially the study of thought. In this area of discussion my prof. has concluded that we can never be sure of anything. That unless we can prove something to be absolutly true( which they have already stated we cannot) through modern skepticism, (this being the scientific method applied to the philosophy of realitve truth) we would be inacurate in stating it as truth or fact. Now since science inherantly under goes change, in hypothesis, testing, conclusions. Nothing can be absolutly reduced to actual fact. It is simply accepted due to consistent trials. (I.E. gravity) Despite this they have come to believe and teach that creationism has infact failed their tests. Having come to a CONCLUSION that this was no the origin of life. Do you see the hyppocracy, and an inherant flaw in their thinking!!! All that said here are my thoughts on this matter. Most of this might not make sense because I cant word this correctly and you werent in class to witness the totality of the lecture.

" If I test my beliefs and choose to be critical of its validity, then I may come to do two things. Remove my errors and find myself a new system of belief, or discover I have good reason to stand on my convictions. However through this worlds system of thought, none totaly right, so what I have deduced in analyzing my beliefs, is now infact false. Therefore I am wandering blind in my beliefs, through the eyes of reason seeking to be confident in what was never true to begin with!"

" If my reasoning is flawed and your reason for seeing innacuracies in my reasoning are flawed. Then something must exsist outside our reason as a standard, this being the origin of all thought. Without this I dare say, our minds would implode!" 

Anyway chew on that for a bit, enjoy as much as you can. And I think the picture best describes how I feel about this futile train of thought.

Its been quite sometime since I have updated this site. And honestly I don't have much to articulate at this point. The climax of the recent events have not yet reached their apex!    ( That was a fun sentence) Life has been more or less constant,.... constantly internal. Again I am in no position to post, that which from christmas until now, has wandered my mind and invaded my heart. All that could be said is that in my hopelessness I am not without hope! In my lack of faith I never lacked! And in my weakness I was never subdued! In time this will unfold into a clear season of life that can actually labeled. Until then I know God is moving Religiousness out of my life and filling that place with need and Grace. What a wonderful thing. I must remember to enjoy the process. Maybe I can now see how Paul takes Joy in trials. Anyway I don't know what more to write. There are I know a few people who actually read this. Still I write for my clarity, and the chance to translate my thought into words. I am also aware that this might  make no sense and confuse you. Bare with me through my own interpretation, attempted poetic wording, and personal rhetoric! God will finish what he has started, and I am complete in him!

(Psalms 45:4-7)  In your majesty ride out victoriously for the cause of truth and meekness and righteousness; let your right hand teach you awesome deeds! Your arrows are sharp in the heart of the king's enemies; the peoples fall under you. Your throne, O God, is forever and ever. The scepter of your kingdom is a scepter of uprightness; you have loved righteousness and hated wickedness. Therefore God, your God, has anointed you with the oil of gladness beyond your companions;

    Bring everyhting subject to the word of God, take every thought captive! Too often do I build a theology based on an perverted understanding of what the bible actually says. I dont want to form opinions about what is true, because someone translated the bible in a way thats easier to understand. I dont care to know what you think unless it comes from what the word actually preaches. Leave your theology behind if it doesnt check out with what God says. I say all this only because I am preaching to me not you. Even though this issue is thriving in the church today.

     Lets stop exhorting one another from mans wisdom. I want to stop preaching my opinion and "live in a manner worthy of the gospel of Christ"(phil.1) What if everything we thought, said and then acted on was from the word of God? What if we only spoke to eacother in a way that allowed the bible to define how and what I say to you. From what I can tell I talk too much, and when I do speak its out of my wisdom, on pointless subjects. There should be more purpose in what I speak and why I say it.